Yer Killing Me, Smalls

Really Long Shower Thoughts

Content Note: Suicide, self harm, religion One of the most consistent terms that gets tossed around when mental health professionals talk about me is PTSD. I’m not sure if it’s an official diagnosis yet, but from my first psychologist appointment back in April until my most recent therapy session, PTSD has been mentioned. The only […]

August 13, 2017

Odd Child

Really Long Shower Thoughts

I was an odd child. Ever since I was very young, I have wrestled¬†with existential issues. Birthdays have always been torture. Parties would often both begin and end with me crying in my bedroom, trying to forget that everyone there was focusing on me, so eventually I didn’t have them anymore. It bothered me to […]

July 18, 2015

Pieces: Big Fur Coat

Farm and Family, Really Long Shower Thoughts

TW: self harm, self hate Depression’s like a big fur coat, It’s made of dead things but it keeps me warm ~ Iodine, Icon for Hire (Internal monologue) No, you don’t need to tell anyone about this. It will only make them feel bad, or ashamed, or remember their own pain. It’s not that big […]

March 13, 2015

Pieces: What Was That?

Farm and Family, Really Long Shower Thoughts

We throw tantrums like parties We’re not happy ’til everyone knows we’re sick And that’s just how we like it We’ve hurt bad enough, right, we’ve earned it ~ Get Well, Icon for Hire It’s taken me a long time to figure this out. I’ve been thinking about it for months. I haven’t been able […]

March 12, 2015